To say the past 11 months have been full of change is an understatement. Motherhood wasn’t at all what I anticipated it would be — not in a bad way, just very different than I expected.
Knowing that motherhood was such a new and awkward adventure for me, you’d think that I would have been angsty about my choices. I was talking to a coworker about Mom guilt one day, and she asked if I felt guilty because I second guessed y mothering choices. I told her no — if anything, I was proud of the choices I made.
It’s really easy to get caught up in all the opinions on the blogosphere, but I don’t let myself. I’m not them, they aren’t me, and what I do is best for our little family.
My child has been breastfed. Eleven months now, and there is no doubt in my mind we’ll make it another 20 some days for a full year. He’s never had formula. I’ve pumped or nursed every ounce.
He’s been diapered with disposable diapers.
I swaddled him until he was four and a half months old, when he started flipping over and I knew it wasn’t safe.
He’s never slept in our bed with us, not even for a nap. I never felt comfortable letting that happen, so I didn’t.
I made all his baby food for him.
We let him cry himself to sleep.
He loves watching Mickey Mouse Clubhouse and Little Einsteins and even football sometimes. That’s because I let him watch TV.
I went back to work at 8 weeks. I like working. I mean, financially I have to work, but I can’t say I drag myself in every day and long for the opportunity to stay home.
We put our son in an in-home daycare because we didn’t like a big daycare.
Recommendations? They are just recommendations. Advice? It’s just advice. I know the best thing for my child and for my family, and I stand fully behind every decision I made. The result, for us, is a happy, healthy boy who has hit and exceeded all his milestones and just had his first fever last week. I’m not saying that the choices I make are right for every family, or they are the reason we’ve been so blessed.
I just know that I’m not holding on to any regrets this first year of motherhood.