Tearin’ up my heart

Mama’s Losin’ It
5)  A song with significance.

I have a confession to make.

Back in the day, and that day was 1998, my family and I were at Disney on a family vacation. It was my high school graduation present. During what I believe was our EPCOT day, Mom pointed out there was boy band concert that was being filmed for The Disney Channel. If you’ll travel back in your memory some 13 odd years, you’ll remember the late 90s being the Years of the Boyband. More spiky hair and funky harmonies than you could shake a stick at.

So, this group was NSYNC, and my sister and I turned up our noeses BIG TIME. We were all, pshaw, boybands? Are for teenyboppers. Thanks, but no thanks. Let’s get a funnel cake and ride Spaceship Earth again.

Mom was like, “Not even for free?”

We were all, “Um, ten-year-old girls screaming over some lame made up group isn’t‘ our idea of a good time, Mom.”

And Sister Fate, she heard every single word of that conversation and wanted us to pay for our flippant attitude toward boy bands. The NSYNC concert aired two months later and NSYNC became the hottest boyband in the country. We were kicking ourselves for missing the concert.

 A few months later, inexplicably, we were hooked. We had a fever, and the only cure was clearly over produced songs sung by pretty boys. We still say that making the decision not to watch that free concert cursed us to have bad seats to everything for the rest of our lives.

Although at 19 years old I was almost a decade older than their target demographic, I was a sucker for anything and everything NSYNC related. We attended several concerts. We bought every CD — even the import singles with exclusive German tracks (this was before iTunes, i.e. the stone ages). We even bought those stupid teen magazines and hung posters up on our walls. I’ll never forget the winter we took off in the snow to get handi-tac from Walmart.

Why would a college aged girl become obsessed with a boyband? It was probably the fear of changes that were happening all around me. My grandmother had a stroke the next summer and then passed away the next fall. I’d started college, and it was new and weird and sometimes hard. My Dad’s company transfered him to Cincinnati, where he lived 5 days out of the week. I was ending one romantic relationship and starting another one. 

Change is awkward and unsettling. Boybands are the complete opposite of that.

I’m a big fan of the 90s station on XM Radio. Everyone once and awhile, the familiar opening notes of Tearing Up My Heart will start blaring on my way home from work and I can’t help by smiling about a simpler time when a group of singers brought so much joy to my life.
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13 comments to Tearin’ up my heart

  • Jackie

    great post! I love how a song can just completely put you back in a particular moment in time and make you smile, or laugh, or cry. I love how certain songs from the 80's make me feel like I'm 18 again without any cares in the world. I love how some songs make me stop and reflect on people or relationships in my life. Music pretty much rocks. ha!

    oh, and thank you for the memory of handi-tac! I had almost forgotten about that yellow or blue snot-like stuff that all my posters hung from in my dorm room. That and contac paper. oh, those were the days. ;)

  • Sarah Mac


    Although, it was our MGM day, but that's Ok. ;-)

    The 90s on 9 Facebook page had "Tearin' Up My Heart" video the other day and I insisted on watching it. Davey said something to me and I told him I'd be with him in 35 seconds because I wasn't about to pause the video that I'd already seen millions of times.

  • Natalie

    Love it!!! I remember 1998 well. It was also my senior year.

    I wrote on this prompt too & probably could've written at least 20 others designated to music. I love how a certain song can remind us of so many things at one time.

  • KLZ

    Alex LOVES N*Sync. Especially "It's Gonna Be Me" because, well, it's gonna be him.

    That said, doesn't JT look kinda creepy in that album cover? I don't remember him looking like that 13 years ago.

  • Hutch

    I was more of a Backstreet Boys fan, mainly because Chris of NSYNC sucked at life. I truly could not stand to look at him. I will say you weren't alone in your decorations. I never had the posters, but my good friends did. And I believe there were comforters as well, but shhh, you didn't hear that from me.

  • tara

    Um. I was obsessed with NSYNC. And I would spend tons of $$$ to get amazing concert tickets if they ever did a reunion tour!

  • Ms.Wasteland

    I'm going to have that song in my head all day now! Too bad you missed them at Disney.

    I was a little too old for the boy band thing when it was big but I remember how gals my age and older were going nuts for them.

  • Liz

    You choosing NSYNC is way better than choosing NKOTB!

  • Stephanie in Suburbia

    I so won't lie, I did enjoy their music, but like…just their music? I dunno, didn't find any of them hot. Maybe I was just jaded by then, given I was all in high school and didn't know that just years later my friends and I would get hit on by the MacDaddy of Boy Bands…JOEY MCINTYRE!

  • Cassandra

    I liked Nsync too, and the Backstreet Boys, but it was totally allowed for me to obsess over them, because I was like…eleven.

  • Julie

    All you have to do is say "Bye Bye Bye" to me and the hand motions come out – just like in the video. Every.Single.Time.

    BTW…Sister Fate always has to have a say in things doesn't she?!

  • JMJE

    I never fully got in to NSYNC but my little sister had all those weird marionette dolls that came out at some point of the guys. I actually saw them in her old closet the other day when I was at my parents' house. Good times. My mom went to several NSYNC concerts with her. I think my mom was secretly in to them too.

  • Cathy

    Class of '98!

    I think NKOTB was my last boy band obsession. By the time I was in college I was all "I'm too tough for boy bands". I'm so not tough.

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